Haiz, tmr, tmr she's gonna leave.....should i? should i?...tell her...should i confess to her......Or, wait until some other time......i duno how she's gonna respond.......
What should i do............i have no idea, don't know what to talk.....should i call her?....sigh..........i REAllY DUNNO............should i, or shouldn't i........
2008年1月26日星期六
2008年1月24日星期四
Time flies...
There will always be, a time when someone's going to leave u......ntg last forever. sigh....... Its just like in Sabah......We all are going to go our own separate ways, after all......
Everyone have their own dreams, their tale to tell. Just.....to achieve that, all of our way are branched...Time will have to tell itself..Pray for meeting again, someday, somehow, somewhere.. Though, maybe, its only my own feelings, but i'm already satisfy and contented. Getting over it is always a hard time for me. Concealing it proves to be even harder...reluctance, only myself...
River flows, flower blossom, life thrive....each year goes on, spring, summer, autumn, winter....Each death brings new life. The cycle will continue to go on and on....Till end of time, disappearance of continuum, space and reality...though the path diverged, but never my soul... Chivalrous but not courageos, always my largest weakness...I just hope that, somewhat, in the vague, blurred future, our path will cross again in the wind of time, we gonna meet again... For now, i can only tell it with a sigh............My feelings will remain untouch, unreachable by others, for, it is only for u. I will bless u, always care for u unconditionally, cause if you're happy, I will be too...I do...Next time, next time...if destined, if fate bring us together again, I promise myself..I am going to make your heart skip a beat again........again...Thanks for giving me such sweet old memories....Farewell....................
Everyone have their own dreams, their tale to tell. Just.....to achieve that, all of our way are branched...Time will have to tell itself..Pray for meeting again, someday, somehow, somewhere.. Though, maybe, its only my own feelings, but i'm already satisfy and contented. Getting over it is always a hard time for me. Concealing it proves to be even harder...reluctance, only myself...
River flows, flower blossom, life thrive....each year goes on, spring, summer, autumn, winter....Each death brings new life. The cycle will continue to go on and on....Till end of time, disappearance of continuum, space and reality...though the path diverged, but never my soul... Chivalrous but not courageos, always my largest weakness...I just hope that, somewhat, in the vague, blurred future, our path will cross again in the wind of time, we gonna meet again... For now, i can only tell it with a sigh............My feelings will remain untouch, unreachable by others, for, it is only for u. I will bless u, always care for u unconditionally, cause if you're happy, I will be too...I do...Next time, next time...if destined, if fate bring us together again, I promise myself..I am going to make your heart skip a beat again........again...Thanks for giving me such sweet old memories....Farewell....................
2008年1月20日星期日
Aikz...
Dunno what went wrong laa. DLed 5 times, cant waTCH! Super frustrating!!!! whats wrong with the clip?! Whats wrong with bit COmET! really duno la........REsults coming out today, 10am...........whats it gonna be, i duno....
I just hope everything is ok, all in good mood............already too nervous to go to sleep...seeing tmr's result, i fear, i gonna remorse again.....sigh.... This is a hard reality fo face, a hard journey.....i rather do excursions.....ASTAgHA!
May God BLesS ME! ~ Amitabha........
I just hope everything is ok, all in good mood............already too nervous to go to sleep...seeing tmr's result, i fear, i gonna remorse again.....sigh.... This is a hard reality fo face, a hard journey.....i rather do excursions.....ASTAgHA!
May God BLesS ME! ~ Amitabha........
2008年1月17日星期四
haha 19 edi wor!
Yesterday was 16, what a date! stupid ass holer noob loong's birthday! sienAH! my friend since primary school edi that stupid guy! Now still messing around like a noobish childish kid, still as playful as ever. Always playing pranks on people only....Ahahahaha, never grown up ever!
Everyone is busy, hau ah, tin ah, bong ah, gang all cant go mv.......... No choice lor, went there with those UTar de..zzzz. but since its loong, bo gai laa...hahaha. i dun want to disappoint him. hehe.
HAhahahaha. Sry ah! reach there oni bought something *RED*for him! lolz happy chinese new year ma. Red brings prospererity. Hehe! aiks! everything going smoothly as expected. But I didnt expect the thick cream on the face.That was the best part! Haha, that was funny! Even added extra for himself. ahahaha. Padan muka~! Lucky old gang not here, or not sure screw him up already. LOL!
STupid! went home stomachache? who asked u ate the contaminated CAKe! HAHAHa! Went out yumcha with him. Poor guy laaa, all cant accompany u. No choice lor, left kp, wg and me lor.
ahhh, 19 edi wor noob loong. Wanted to praise u de, but dun want laa, later u get cocky and action hehehe. What i want to said is, dun think about the past edi lar, aim for the future, do ur best, strive for ur goal! We are frens,old frens, i will alwiz be there to support U1, But not in the form of financial ooh! Pei u whenever u are lonely! Note: Not GAY relationship!!! haha! HAppy 19th birthday loong! Wish u AS noob as ever! Work harder for ur future to be a brighter path! Dun think abt her again la, she's not worth for u to think and she doesnt deserve it! XD Happy BdaY~!!!
Everyone is busy, hau ah, tin ah, bong ah, gang all cant go mv.......... No choice lor, went there with those UTar de..zzzz. but since its loong, bo gai laa...hahaha. i dun want to disappoint him. hehe.
HAhahahaha. Sry ah! reach there oni bought something *RED*for him! lolz happy chinese new year ma. Red brings prospererity. Hehe! aiks! everything going smoothly as expected. But I didnt expect the thick cream on the face.That was the best part! Haha, that was funny! Even added extra for himself. ahahaha. Padan muka~! Lucky old gang not here, or not sure screw him up already. LOL!
STupid! went home stomachache? who asked u ate the contaminated CAKe! HAHAHa! Went out yumcha with him. Poor guy laaa, all cant accompany u. No choice lor, left kp, wg and me lor.
ahhh, 19 edi wor noob loong. Wanted to praise u de, but dun want laa, later u get cocky and action hehehe. What i want to said is, dun think about the past edi lar, aim for the future, do ur best, strive for ur goal! We are frens,old frens, i will alwiz be there to support U1, But not in the form of financial ooh! Pei u whenever u are lonely! Note: Not GAY relationship!!! haha! HAppy 19th birthday loong! Wish u AS noob as ever! Work harder for ur future to be a brighter path! Dun think abt her again la, she's not worth for u to think and she doesnt deserve it! XD Happy BdaY~!!!
2008年1月16日星期三
很难很难..what am i talking............
Why? as a human being, we have so many problems to face.. so many hurdle to overcome...i know, it is the only way for me to grow, to gain experience, to be tougher...But, sometimes i just wanted go give up, wanted to leave this world forever.... I often feel so empty, a void inside my heart. I dont have confidence in myself, i doubted sometimes will i even succeed in life.. Most of the time, i have my friends along my side, helping me, comforting me, entertaining me. Despite that, i still feel so weak, so fragile, so insecure... its like i am good, but for nothing. I'm so useless......Sigh......
Now i only know, games are nothing but drugs that will ruin our life...I wasted so much so much of my time on games...I ended up getting nothing, NothinG!!.. I given up online or computer games now....For, i do not want to remorse in the future. Regretting is really painful, a painstaking process that hurts, it makes me very emotional, very depress. I regretted a lot of things in the past few years....I do not want to regret anything, anymore...
Discouragement, criticism, sacartism......its really hard for me to accept. I'm very heart-broken when i listen to those words.... Its hard for me to stand up again... Maybe i'm not that smart, maybe i'm not that good, but who's perfect? I just need time, i need confident, i need courage. I tried not to disappoint others, but sometimes the price to pay is failure. Every success comes from failure....but, sometimes, the pressure is too much for me...I cant take it anymore...Please, dont compare me with my friends and others. Everyone have their own goods and bads in certain field, certain subjects. I dont want to be famous, neither a genius....Please, stop comparing me with others, please, stop tormenting me......
Anyone, if possible... lend me the courage, lend me the strength. I wanted be me and my oldself again...Please....return my enthusiam for everything nice, sweet. Return my true soul back to me, give me back those vivid memories.....I just wanted to be myself......me........not anyone else.....
Now i only know, games are nothing but drugs that will ruin our life...I wasted so much so much of my time on games...I ended up getting nothing, NothinG!!.. I given up online or computer games now....For, i do not want to remorse in the future. Regretting is really painful, a painstaking process that hurts, it makes me very emotional, very depress. I regretted a lot of things in the past few years....I do not want to regret anything, anymore...
Discouragement, criticism, sacartism......its really hard for me to accept. I'm very heart-broken when i listen to those words.... Its hard for me to stand up again... Maybe i'm not that smart, maybe i'm not that good, but who's perfect? I just need time, i need confident, i need courage. I tried not to disappoint others, but sometimes the price to pay is failure. Every success comes from failure....but, sometimes, the pressure is too much for me...I cant take it anymore...Please, dont compare me with my friends and others. Everyone have their own goods and bads in certain field, certain subjects. I dont want to be famous, neither a genius....Please, stop comparing me with others, please, stop tormenting me......
Anyone, if possible... lend me the courage, lend me the strength. I wanted be me and my oldself again...Please....return my enthusiam for everything nice, sweet. Return my true soul back to me, give me back those vivid memories.....I just wanted to be myself......me........not anyone else.....
2008年1月12日星期六
我真蠢，大笨蛋!!!
五年没见面，没说过话，只在新年那晚寄了她一封短讯，幸亏她还记得我...之后刚巧在网上看到她。谈谈下，她叫我看一公升的眼泪...害我家差点水灾呢! 好久没哭了，不要又再让我淌泪.......... HAHA! 没法子，巨蟹座，感情丰富，真情流露，不算滥情Laaaaaa! 真的，那套戏看了令人想流泪...结尾的那首歌与照片，超感动........
每次跟她在网上交谈，都非常开心....已久没尝试过这种心情了....我近乎每天都在等她上网.....想跟她多谈些，因为，她又即将走了。Sigh.....离她走的日子，只剩两个星期吧了......时间不多了。最近也时常被挨骂，责斥，可能上网的次数多得很.....那滋味很是不好受。~
无论如何，我会一直等，等待她......
每次跟她在网上交谈，都非常开心....已久没尝试过这种心情了....我近乎每天都在等她上网.....想跟她多谈些，因为，她又即将走了。Sigh.....离她走的日子，只剩两个星期吧了......时间不多了。最近也时常被挨骂，责斥，可能上网的次数多得很.....那滋味很是不好受。~
无论如何，我会一直等，等待她......
肺腑之言
从NS回来后，人也不同了。非常感谢Ah Jack,我的gay友! Lolx!别再笑我大小孩!!!!，Steven, Edda, Kidley, Dave, Yih Jian, Jarvis, Larry, Zing Quam, Siti, Kesey...等人。我...感谢你们给了我一个铭记于心，很美好的回忆。优其是Jack, Steven，谢谢你们与我分享的。我会永远的惦记呢你们!!!! 四圣谛，八正道，友谊长存，快过来探望我吧，别老是叫我过去找你们!!没钱买飞机票laaaa...! 飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞飞..............
这样就08 了~ 感憾啊! 很多college的朋友都已经徐徐离开了....ZhenLong, Navin, Carmen, Ming yoong。好舍不得你们!!!~~~ 鸣谢跟我庆祝，迎接08年的朋友! 恩明, 雪婷，Mun, Xin, 和Zimaam。!!!!!!!! U guys meant a lot to me! thank you for everything! 这当然包括衰龙，GAY佬HanTin, KEnny!!! hehe! 我很珍惜这份与你们的友情。
PS: 以上所提的人，请接纳我万二分的谢意。
这样就08 了~ 感憾啊! 很多college的朋友都已经徐徐离开了....ZhenLong, Navin, Carmen, Ming yoong。好舍不得你们!!!~~~ 鸣谢跟我庆祝，迎接08年的朋友! 恩明, 雪婷，Mun, Xin, 和Zimaam。!!!!!!!! U guys meant a lot to me! thank you for everything! 这当然包括衰龙，GAY佬HanTin, KEnny!!! hehe! 我很珍惜这份与你们的友情。
PS: 以上所提的人，请接纳我万二分的谢意。
真的........
Hehe!进入中学时期了!很荣兴的进入1Z1。第一次上中学，感觉有点怕，毕竟人生地不熟maa.. 久而久之，认识的朋友也多了些。觉得很幸运，能跟小学朋友文川同班。Ahaha!接这才知道有更多小学朋友也加入了公中呢!日子一般，读读下书一年就不见了。ForM 2 了!!! YaY!长高了些， 大 一年。Haha!在那年，认识了很多超棒的朋友，Jason Foong ah, 俊明啊，政寰啊，Kai Liang, Samuel 以及其他。虽然KaiLiang, Samuel都已移明别国造学。但是，他们永存我心中朋友。优其是KaiLiang... 中二是我中学生涯中最难忘的日子。因为她在出现了在我生活中，因为她的关系... 自从第一次看到她，就被她活泼的个性及可爱，Kawaiii >.< 的脸庞深深吸引了。世上的事真难预料，级任老师将她调换跟我同座。非常开心!!!!不知何解，级任老师老是称赞我为整班最乖的学生......与她同座久了，彼此交谈的很多。有些节时，整班唯有我们俩的说话声吧了。科任老师又不理会我们....班上时时都会传我与她的谣言，绯闻...我发觉自己越来越喜欢她了。情不自禁的，虽然日子过了，久了，彼此分享的很多，可是，和她说话时，心跳会越快.....我曾经想过向她表白，但..却没那勇气......Haiz.......年尾临近时，我和她近乎没说过话了。到后来，我很后悔，很难放开，可惜，可悲啊...心里的绞痛实在无法言语.........
2008年1月7日星期一
依然清晰
记得小时候，非常好玩，天天都会跟一大班朋友玩捉捉。小学的我，都会跟脑里的一个"神"交谈。当我不愉快时，"神"就会安慰我。直到我12岁那年，"神"说他将会永远离开我...真的，一去不会了.....12岁是我面对UPSR的一年。我非常的重视呢。也是那年，我认识了她。虽然当时还小，可是对感情方面却是很认真...想起一次，没被安排跟她坐，我回家痛哭整晚。明日，我心里还留阵阵伤痛的感觉。日子久了，我也渐渐平复了。直到某日，6月尾时，在学校补习班时...她跑去跟另个朋友换位。坐在我前面。整班只有我们俩的交谈声。也是同时，她，向我表白了........她可是蛮多男生追求的对象。很开心她选择了我。6789我生日那天，她送了我一个心状的装饰.....
小学时，我可是蛮用功的一位学生哦! 就在UPSR临考的前一个星期，我看见了流星。好快的，我许了个愿望，就是UPSR能获7个A。也就是那几个星期，她问我为何对她冷淡了。我便告诉她我须努力读书之类的。接着，我就..................长吁短叹...........
小学时，我可是蛮用功的一位学生哦! 就在UPSR临考的前一个星期，我看见了流星。好快的，我许了个愿望，就是UPSR能获7个A。也就是那几个星期，她问我为何对她冷淡了。我便告诉她我须努力读书之类的。接着，我就..................长吁短叹...........
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