chinese new year approches!

HEheeeee..! Chinese new year coming edi oh, aiyor, doing the same thing again, so sianzzz. Visit relatives, get angpaus, more angpaus, more $$$ each with cheque and bank drafts, such little amount, SIENZ AH! hope i will get a key for mercz in the angpau laaa. Dun say say, i noe i used to be emotional alwiz .....ZZzzzz hope i wont get emo again during chinese new year. Z, not counted as holiday oso....After cny, going to suffer lor.....sei lor... Got this test, that test, past years, applications....aikzz, dun dare imagine. hmmm, hope this new year will be my most memorable one...haha, and hope to go to interesting places with frens. XD . aStaGHA! i dun want to be lonely again during this cny.....zzz. hope i can forget abt her for the moment in cny....or else...dunno what going to happen, mayb funny funny things occure -.- " I alwiz have no idea what i am talking. hahaahaha!! i grant u all ur wish la, i wont be so sobz for this cny. Hehe. thanks for all of ya support mate! love u guys! all of U!

should i.....

Haiz, tmr, tmr she's gonna leave.....should i? should i?...tell her...should i confess to her......Or, wait until some other time......i duno how she's gonna respond.......
What should i do............i have no idea, don't know what to talk.....should i call her?....sigh..........i REAllY DUNNO............should i, or shouldn't i........

Time flies...

There will always be, a time when someone's going to leave u......ntg last forever. sigh....... Its just like in Sabah......We all are going to go our own separate ways, after all......
Everyone have their own dreams, their tale to tell. Just.....to achieve that, all of our way are branched...Time will have to tell itself..Pray for meeting again, someday, somehow, somewhere.. Though, maybe, its only my own feelings, but i'm already satisfy and contented. Getting over it is always a hard time for me. Concealing it proves to be even harder...reluctance, only myself...
River flows, flower blossom, life thrive....each year goes on, spring, summer, autumn, winter....Each death brings new life. The cycle will continue to go on and on....Till end of time, disappearance of continuum, space and reality...though the path diverged, but never my soul... Chivalrous but not courageos, always my largest weakness...I just hope that, somewhat, in the vague, blurred future, our path will cross again in the wind of time, we gonna meet again... For now, i can only tell it with a sigh............My feelings will remain untouch, unreachable by others, for, it is only for u. I will bless u, always care for u unconditionally, cause if you're happy, I will be too...I do...Next time, next time...if destined, if fate bring us together again, I promise myself..I am going to make your heart skip a beat again........again...Thanks for giving me such sweet old memories....Farewell....................

Aikz...

Dunno what went wrong laa. DLed 5 times, cant waTCH! Super frustrating!!!! whats wrong with the clip?! Whats wrong with bit COmET! really duno la........REsults coming out today, 10am...........whats it gonna be, i duno....
I just hope everything is ok, all in good mood............already too nervous to go to sleep...seeing tmr's result, i fear, i gonna remorse again.....sigh.... This is a hard reality fo face, a hard journey.....i rather do excursions.....ASTAgHA!
May God BLesS ME! ~ Amitabha........

haha 19 edi wor!

Yesterday was 16, what a date! stupid ass holer noob loong's birthday! sienAH! my friend since primary school edi that stupid guy! Now still messing around like a noobish childish kid, still as playful as ever. Always playing pranks on people only....Ahahahaha, never grown up ever!
Everyone is busy, hau ah, tin ah, bong ah, gang all cant go mv.......... No choice lor, went there with those UTar de..zzzz. but since its loong, bo gai laa...hahaha. i dun want to disappoint him. hehe.
HAhahahaha. Sry ah! reach there oni bought something *RED*for him! lolz happy chinese new year ma. Red brings prospererity. Hehe! aiks! everything going smoothly as expected. But I didnt expect the thick cream on the face.That was the best part! Haha, that was funny! Even added extra for himself. ahahaha. Padan muka~! Lucky old gang not here, or not sure screw him up already. LOL!
STupid! went home stomachache? who asked u ate the contaminated CAKe! HAHAHa! Went out yumcha with him. Poor guy laaa, all cant accompany u. No choice lor, left kp, wg and me lor.
ahhh, 19 edi wor noob loong. Wanted to praise u de, but dun want laa, later u get cocky and action hehehe. What i want to said is, dun think about the past edi lar, aim for the future, do ur best, strive for ur goal! We are frens,old frens, i will alwiz be there to support U1, But not in the form of financial ooh! Pei u whenever u are lonely! Note: Not GAY relationship!!! haha! HAppy 19th birthday loong! Wish u AS noob as ever! Work harder for ur future to be a brighter path! Dun think abt her again la, she's not worth for u to think and she doesnt deserve it! XD Happy BdaY~!!!

很难很难..what am i talking............

Why? as a human being, we have so many problems to face.. so many hurdle to overcome...i know, it is the only way for me to grow, to gain experience, to be tougher...But, sometimes i just wanted go give up, wanted to leave this world forever.... I often feel so empty, a void inside my heart. I dont have confidence in myself, i doubted sometimes will i even succeed in life.. Most of the time, i have my friends along my side, helping me, comforting me, entertaining me. Despite that, i still feel so weak, so fragile, so insecure... its like i am good, but for nothing. I'm so useless......Sigh......
Now i only know, games are nothing but drugs that will ruin our life...I wasted so much so much of my time on games...I ended up getting nothing, NothinG!!.. I given up online or computer games now....For, i do not want to remorse in the future. Regretting is really painful, a painstaking process that hurts, it makes me very emotional, very depress. I regretted a lot of things in the past few years....I do not want to regret anything, anymore...
Discouragement, criticism, sacartism......its really hard for me to accept. I'm very heart-broken when i listen to those words.... Its hard for me to stand up again... Maybe i'm not that smart, maybe i'm not that good, but who's perfect? I just need time, i need confident, i need courage. I tried not to disappoint others, but sometimes the price to pay is failure. Every success comes from failure....but, sometimes, the pressure is too much for me...I cant take it anymore...Please, dont compare me with my friends and others. Everyone have their own goods and bads in certain field, certain subjects. I dont want to be famous, neither a genius....Please, stop comparing me with others, please, stop tormenting me......
Anyone, if possible... lend me the courage, lend me the strength. I wanted be me and my oldself again...Please....return my enthusiam for everything nice, sweet. Return my true soul back to me, give me back those vivid memories.....I just wanted to be myself......me........not anyone else.....

我真蠢，大笨蛋!!!

五年没见面，没说过话，只在新年那晚寄了她一封短讯，幸亏她还记得我...之后刚巧在网上看到她。谈谈下，她叫我看一公升的眼泪...害我家差点水灾呢! 好久没哭了，不要又再让我淌泪.......... HAHA! 没法子，巨蟹座，感情丰富，真情流露，不算滥情Laaaaaa! 真的，那套戏看了令人想流泪...结尾的那首歌与照片，超感动........



每次跟她在网上交谈，都非常开心....已久没尝试过这种心情了....我近乎每天都在等她上网.....想跟她多谈些，因为，她又即将走了。Sigh.....离她走的日子，只剩两个星期吧了......时间不多了。最近也时常被挨骂，责斥，可能上网的次数多得很.....那滋味很是不好受。~



无论如何，我会一直等，等待她......